Why I Said No

It's a been a while since I have written anything at all. It's been two years, but hopefully not all of my fans have left me. I am picking up where I left off. I suppose what would be the simplest to do would be to tell you all about what I have been doing for the past two years. What I've gone, what I've lost, gained. I don't know what to tell you all, but I do have something I want to share.

Recently I've been seeing someone, we will not name names here. I find that it's better that way. I have been "dating" him and there is nothing quite as interesting as understanding what that exactly means nowadays. I know I sound old-fashioned but that's the way that I seem to be. Anyway, this morning, over brunch, he asked me to be his girlfriend. Now, to a lot of people that doesn't mean a lot, it's basically a word that we slap on in hopes that the person we give this title to will be exclusive to us. What people fail to realize is that it is training wheels. 

We all hope as women that someday there will be a man who loves you enough to go there. To call you his fiancee, his wife, the mother to his children, and those are all phases that we hope to go through. However, it is becoming more and more apparent to me that most of it is just a game. I know that I sound cynical, but we go through the motions of being someone's girlfriend, someone's property, someone's one and only, only to realize that person had no intention of helping you go through the phases. 

So why date? If marriage isn't the end goal, if we aren't going to talk about it until we have been together three years and we now realize that we are on completely different pages, why do it at all? Why invest the energy, time, effort, money into something that has no future? 

Sometimes things aren't broken, sometimes they were never fixed in the first place. 

So I said no, and that doesn't mean that I don't care about him; it means I care about him too much to jump into something that could work instead of waiting on that will work. 

What do you think? What does "girlfriend" mean to you? Leave a comment in the comment section below. 

Fears.

There is nothing that I have written worthwhile in the past two years that I have been with my current significant other. Now, I'm not talking about the things that I write on here. There are current the ramblings of a modern girl in a post-modern time, where we write in broken English and use symbols to convey our feelings about a situation. I mean that I haven't written anything creative. Instead of using my time like that, I have been more productive (which may or may not work out in the long run).
Anyway, I know that not many people will read this, and in fact, probably none of you, but I have this fear that, tomorrow when I get in my car, I won't be able to drive it. I know that I am allowed to do it by myself but I am so afraid. So how do I get over that?
How come so many people can do it and I can't?


I know that this is a short post but hopefully, in the comments below, you can share with me your fears. 

Blogger app for iOS and Android - Disappointing

Perhaps this is the right place to complain about it, perhaps not, but I feel like Google has abandoned the mobile app for Blogger. There has only ever been one update and for a casual blogger like me, I don't want to fuss with html. This is not mySpace. I would like to see a lot of things change. I have decided to detail them here, maybe something will be done but after three years, I doubt it.

1. Tablet support.
This only applies to the iOS version of the app. It is currently only available for the iPhone, which is just bogus. Looking at WordPress, I know that it is possible to make an app that is universal and takes into account the statistics that help bloggers create user-centered content.

2. Stats Support
I like seeing how many people look at a certain post, so that I can try to make more of that kind of stuff. It doesn't matter to see those kind of things on an iPhone application but seeing it on the iPad makes a lot of difference for those who use their iPad because they want to ditch their laptop.

3. The UI and functionality needs help
It doesn't make sense to have buttons that say back but that go to the main menu. The navigation is clunky and I wouldn't mind paying an application that is smoother.

I just don't understand why the application is lacking so much. It doesn't make sense and this is not what I expect from Google in any way, shape or form. If I could rate it, It would not even get two stars.

The first post of the Summer

So here it is, summer.

The truth is that I'm becoming more and more afraid of time. I know that this is supposed to be a tech blog. In truth, I have no idea what I want to do with this thing. It seems like it is my summer hobby, but seeing as my summer started about eight weeks ago, I would say that I'm slacking a bit. I suppose it doesn't help that I started my first job a while ago.

I want to tell you a little bit about what happened to me the past year.
1. I have succeeding in changing my major.
2. I still haven't upgraded to OS X Lion, which I guess doesn't make because Mountain Lion is coming out in a few months anyway.
3. I have aged.
4. I have gotten into Korean Dramas. I think that they are awesome and I can now say six or seven phrases in Korea, which actually helps at my job.
5. I am the proud owner of an iPhone 4s. Everyone who has heard complain about for the past six months is happy about it.
6. I'm a senior in college now.
(That last sentence scared the crap out of me.)

Anyway, that's pretty much it.

Later on, I was thinking about posting my favourite apps thus far downloaded.
Look out for it.