Why I Said No

It's a been a while since I have written anything at all. It's been two years, but hopefully not all of my fans have left me. I am picking up where I left off. I suppose what would be the simplest to do would be to tell you all about what I have been doing for the past two years. What I've gone, what I've lost, gained. I don't know what to tell you all, but I do have something I want to share.

Recently I've been seeing someone, we will not name names here. I find that it's better that way. I have been "dating" him and there is nothing quite as interesting as understanding what that exactly means nowadays. I know I sound old-fashioned but that's the way that I seem to be. Anyway, this morning, over brunch, he asked me to be his girlfriend. Now, to a lot of people that doesn't mean a lot, it's basically a word that we slap on in hopes that the person we give this title to will be exclusive to us. What people fail to realize is that it is training wheels. 

We all hope as women that someday there will be a man who loves you enough to go there. To call you his fiancee, his wife, the mother to his children, and those are all phases that we hope to go through. However, it is becoming more and more apparent to me that most of it is just a game. I know that I sound cynical, but we go through the motions of being someone's girlfriend, someone's property, someone's one and only, only to realize that person had no intention of helping you go through the phases. 

So why date? If marriage isn't the end goal, if we aren't going to talk about it until we have been together three years and we now realize that we are on completely different pages, why do it at all? Why invest the energy, time, effort, money into something that has no future? 

Sometimes things aren't broken, sometimes they were never fixed in the first place. 

So I said no, and that doesn't mean that I don't care about him; it means I care about him too much to jump into something that could work instead of waiting on that will work. 

What do you think? What does "girlfriend" mean to you? Leave a comment in the comment section below.